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My Mental Health Status
TRIGGER WARNING: This post contains content about suicide, suicide ideation/attempts, major depression and familial trauma. My mental status, in a nutshell? It’s all over the place. Kind of bleak, but at the same time, covered in love. Ok…that sounded grosser than I meant it…..Anyway, here’s where I’m at. I had a major setback to my…
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The Everton Match
My wife and I are huge fans of the Premier League football team Everton, who are based out of Liverpool, England. When Nancy and I moved to Annapolis, MD in December of 2011, I couldn’t tell you anything about association football, better known as soccer here in America. HOW WE FELL IN LOVE WITH WHAT…
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Switching meds…I’m a wreck
I am currently a complete mental mess. Let me tell you why. For years, I have been taking Trintellix for major depression and anxiety. Along with semi-weekly therapy, this medication has made my mental health change for the better. We found out earlier this year that our insurance company, Blue Cross/Blue Shield, would stop paying…
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COVID & Depression
*NOTE – This post is not a “woe is me” post, nor is it to solicit sympathy. It is merely to point out to others that someone might feel the same as them* Let’s get COVID! On July 16th, 2022, my favorite Premier League football team, Everton, came to Baltimore to play a pre-season match.…
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Why I Left the Intelligence Community
MY HISTORY I have worked for the Department of Defense (DoD) since 1992. The first eight years I was serving in the US Navy as a Cryptographic Technician (Communications). I was responsible for disseminating message traffic to and from our command at the Top Secret/SCI level. In late 1996, I arrived at my last duty…
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I’m Not Changing, I’m Evolving
I want to make a change to how I use social media, specifically Twitter. There are essentially two large groups that make up the majority of my followers: WordPress folks, and anti-Trump folks. I feel like the latter group is distancing me from the former group. Most of y’all know my political leanings, so I…
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Prelude To An Emotional Breakdown
This post’s title sounds like the name of an epic progressive metal song *cues up some Dream Theater* I’m sorry for not having posted any updates in a while. I could sit here and type up excuses, but the bottom line is that I’m just still sort of uncomfortable opening myself up to everyone. More…
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I am not OK…but I’m getting better
From a mental health standpoint, I am not ok, and I’m not doing well, at all. A few weeks ago, I had my “snapping point” and I told Nancy “I need help”. After talking to some mental health professionals, I’m pretty fucked up. So far, I’ve been diagnosed with the following: * PTSD* Severe anxiety*…
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DACA FAQ
Over the last few months, I’ve seen so much misinformation surrounding DACA and the Dreamers. I found this online and figured it’s easier to share this than to re-type it every time someone says “DO IT LEGALLY LIKE ERRYONE ELSE!!!!111”
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Honey
My wife, Nancy, has been best friends with Melissa for over 20 years. They were college roommates and their friendship has only grown since college. Yesterday, Nancy and I attended a “Life Celebration” for Melissa’s mom, Honey, who passed away on July 15th. The very first thing I learned yesterday was that her name was…